Writing In The Fog

Hey everyone.

I really want to get more into blogging. But with the time I have with school, blehk. Not happening.

I have raised a great amount of support for Acts 1:8, praise the Lord! And, I know more about what my trip will consist of. I'm excited. My team is awesome. My leader is boss. No no no, you don't get it, that's a word for AWESOME. Haha.

So I'm sort of writing just to write, and I need to hear some of the music for the Easter program I'm in Sunday. But before I do, some ponderings.

I've been thinking about this book I want to write... The Obedient Lifestyle. And I've been trying to figure it out in my head where the book needs to go. Or... if I'm wanting to get to step two without looking at step one.

I've really been thinking, what does spiritual discipline entail? I know this is sort of all over the place but that's how it is in my head.

I feel like I'm not ready to write this book. But...

Right now, I'm just trying to go beyond everything I hear, everything I see, in Christianity. And, I have to acknowledge... I'm wondering if God and I aren't just acquaintances? Business partners? He saved me by grace through faith, and I'm listening to His command from Acts 1:8 by... doing... Acts 1:8, this summer.

Something is just... missing.

One thing I've been guilty of is making God into who I want Him to be, at least attempting to. I expect an answer of where I need to go in my life, but really, it's all in faith. And I just have to take a step. I'm literally cowering in the corner at the realization that I graduate in one month, with no intention of using my primary major, and if I'm a worship leader my second major won't be a waste. But anyway, following 1:8... I just see gray. No black or white... just gray.

I've been getting a ton of encouragement from friends lately. That's awesome.

But God... I want to be so much more than acquaintances. I want to be Your son.

And I am Yours...

May I see the dawn?



--I plan to update a lot during Acts 1:8, so I'll try and set something up soon, I'll probably just use this place. Until then... buh bye!