What a time!

Hey,

It's been so long since I've blogged. Or, has it? Haha, but I really have wanted to write some stuff. But I've been so busy! Honestly I believe I can see just how much I've poured into 180, and I'm sincerely loving it.

I really don't feel like I have a whole lot to say, so I will just kinda share where I am faith wise.

Yesterday at Crossland... wow, what a service. Lemee tell ya, cardboard testimonies will always getcha. But... how about when there are kids, probably 9, 10, 11 years of age, and older, who are sharing very deep stories? I soon realize, I'm privileged. I didn't have to go through any of this junk... I mean naturally I went through some stuff... like, I really didn't grow up with grandparents, for example. But, my goodness. As if that didn't touch me enough... inside of a Sunday service, after Matt Willgruber brought the message... the youth was practically straight across the altar... and some were emotional, I'm almost for sure many people in that room had conviction. I definitely did. These kids went through so much... and look at me. My complacent life, living like I want to. God, change my heart.

Girls. I'm a guy, I've been single for about 6 months now coming out of about a 6-year relationship... give or take, and girls... are on my mind. Now obviously, I'm not going to say who, but I'd definitely be content with one of a few girls I currently like. Yet, all I truly want is a woman who will keep me accountable, let me keep her accountable, and together we can serve Christ in however way He would have us to. But, I'm going through struggles right now. And, I don't think God wants me dating at this moment. Because if I did... I would probably not be the best man to her, and I definitely do not want that. I'd want the very best for her... and, to lift her up and just be there for her. But at the same time, for both of us to have Christ in the center of our relationship. Anyway, just felt compelled to write about that.

Finally... devotions are awful, or should I say, lack of devotions. However, I've been doing them daily, mainly for cluster, but starting TODAY d-group will be rolling again, and it'll be good to get back to studying a book or if we decide to go to a book in the Bible, whatever I need that time to learn about God. I feel like this year is what that's all about, is learning who God really is and what he has done and what he is doing. I'm becoming exposed to Old Testament, and so far am doing very well in the class, to my delight. But at the same time I am learning so much. I think I finally found my balance, to learn what has happened, and to get involved with what all the controversy is about. I just know I will have to keep myself in check from this state university class and compare what I learn there to what God reveals to me. And that's probably what I'm most curious about, is revelations (not Revelation the book), but revelations from God, and how you hear His word, and answer His call. I would very much like to discover my passions, which there's music and serving, but I need to find more.

Alright gonna jam, then read, then d-group! WOO!

~Kevin~